four songs for losing you

by flatsound

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four songs written in the summer and fall of 2014. an intimate album about letting go.

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released September 21, 2015

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Track Name: in the absence of everything, i promise to keep you warm
days dedicated to the thought of being through
and i just want to lay in bed with you
and admit that i'm so tired of everything i do
but with you - it was new

and i can't stop thinking of the moon
or the nights i saw your breath in the room
so draw a line within the snow
between what you thought and what you know
and in that space i'll build a home and i'll wait

if this fire goes out i will keep you warm the best i can
i'll throw everything i have into the flames just to make it last
Track Name: you wanted to look for help, i wanted to sit and wait to be rescued
there are reasons that i can't stay
i counted them all myself
but i will always keep awake
searching for how it felt
because all i want is to find myself in anyone
and i wonder if it'll ever come
as easy as us giving up

if this could stop
i don't think i'd want it to
i built my life around watching everything you do
it still feels like you can hear me when i talk to you
you just don't respond

and all i want is to find myself in anyone
and i wonder if you're having fun
i wonder if you're having fun

all i want is to find myself in anyone
and i wonder if you're having fun
in that empty space where we used to talk
Track Name: you wrote 'don't forget' on your arm
you said you were done, well how done?
because you wrote 'don't forget'
on your arm when you were drunk
and i got mad at the fact
that you had to remind yourself at all
i got mad when i shouldn't have
it's just that i got so scared
that you had already forgot

but now i'm looking for a time machine
or anyone who can justify why i've been gone
or anyone to lie to me
they could say that they understand the things i've done
but neal said that i don't need him
i want to believe that i really don't need him
i know that neal said that i don't need him
but i don't believe him

but i can't wait until i see your face
and my brain thinks that it's looking at a stranger
i can't wait until i see your face
and my brain feels nothing
i'll feel nothing
Track Name: learning to hate you as a self defense mechanism
you're on the phone
with someone who doesn't know
about your soul and how it
can't be held by flesh and bone
and i guess that's fine
i would never want you to
stop your life
but when i saw you both
with your shoulders touching
sitting so close

i knew i'd hold on to this feeling
i'd hold on to anything at all
was it my fault
because i easily confused you
for someone who would hold my hand
when things got hard
when things got dark
because oh my god
when they get dark
they get so dark

you were always a shitty friend
and you would leave when i got sick
you never called me on my birthday
i want to call you on your birthday
so i'll hold on to this feeling
i'll hold on to this hate
for as long as i need
for it to help me