did everything feel beautiful when you let go of the idea of being anything at all

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42eyeballs This album reminds me of both warm, comfortable times and cold times where you were thrown out there on a whim. Both events were eventually remembered with fondness and yet a sad regard for not feeling contant like that anymore. Favorite track: you were a home that i wanted to grow up in.
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Ian Wilbanks a beautifully written, genuine album. it also just sounds so lovely, like everything mitch does Favorite track: you were a home that i wanted to grow up in.
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Benet as a person who suffers a similar struggle, this album inspires me to know that this does not have to hold me back as an artist. Favorite track: you were a home that i wanted to grow up in.
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a short album about panic disorder and agoraphobia. all songs written and recorded by mitch welling. special thank you to neal sideman.

mastered by jesse cannon.

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released March 14, 2016

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Track Name: ferris bueller
it never felt this hard to be inside of your car. i want to go out far, to anywhere you want. but, is ferris bueller on? because i could really use some distraction from everything. is ferris bueller on? because i could really use some distraction, or a day off. you know he killed a person once. isn’t that fucked up. i want to get fucked up, because i feel the weight of a car crash every time i go out.
Track Name: you were a home that i wanted to grow up in
you can love again, despite the things you said about caring too much for a person you thought was the most important part of your life. but, that’s what you get for opening a closed door in hopes they’ll find love on the inside. i’m a house with no windows, you’re the flowers on the front porch and i can’t stop. but, sometimes it scares me how much i think about going for a walk and never coming home, and how willing i am to leave everything i have and everyone i know. and you said, “i think your eyes could use some sleep”. and i said, “i like your arms the way they are”.
Track Name: you had a panic attack in my bathroom
you used to come up for air through a sea of other people, just hoping they don’t notice that you are leaving again. you’re leaving again. and you can’t believe it’s true, there are people like you – with the same hearts, and the same marks on our bodies. did everything feel beautiful when you let go of the idea of being anything at all? and you can’t believe it’s true, there are people like you. when i held you in my bathroom – i felt new.
Track Name: nothing good comes from being gone
did you escape from the feelings that you wanted to replace, with anything you thought could fill the space? i hope you found the quietness you want, because nothing good comes from being gone. so keep your eyes on anything, as long as it makes you happy. do you feel like a big girl? do you feel like a big girl now? now that you’re out in the big world and i still can’t leave the house. because the starting line is atop a mountain that i can’t climb with these broken arms. i liked you, but more than anything i wanted to be like you. with the strength inside to make it to the top, because nothing good comes from being gone. i’m willing to admit it’s all my fault. i will trade all of my pride for what i’ve lost. i don’t want to lose this battle with my thoughts. nothing good comes from being gone.
Track Name: remembering a room that isn't there
tiny ghost, please don’t haunt me. this is bullshit. i used to sit in the dark of your bedroom. smoke weed with me and laugh. take me back to before i got bad.